Thursday, January 12, 2017

One Small Moment - Vaughn's unconditional love

I swear I can’t catch a break when it comes to this blog. 

The latest casualty, my laptop; It wasn’t exactly easy trying to work, watch the episode on my phone, and typing up the episode breakdown. But it was kinda working. But now my laptop and everything I have ever written, every picture I’ve ever screenshot and saved could be lost because my fan is dead and my laptop refuses to turn on without it. We are working on it, but you know the story about needing money, well that’s this story too.

So I am writing and posting this on my phone. I wasn’t going to post anything, because I feel like I’ve been telling you I’m working on it in multiple posts, but not posting anything real for three years.
Admit it, I have.
But today is a little different.  I am actually going to talk about Sydney & Vaughn and a scene that they share in season 4. I watched a moment go through in a YouTube video, and I really started thinking about that moment.  I went back and re-watched the scene, and I realized something huge about myself and about why I love Sydney & Vaughn so much.  It’s all about Vaughn and his unconditional love for Sydney.  Let me repeat that…
Vaughn’s UNCONDITIONAL love and support for Sydney is what makes their love story the best love story. Don’t get me wrong, Sydney loves Vaughn, but it takes her a little more time to get to the unconditional part, especially in season 4.
People may argue, “Vaughn married Lauren less than two years after Sydney died. That’s not unconditional love.” But I will argue that point, and I will win. I’ve written way too much on why Vaughn did what he did. Go back and read the non-episode posts that were written during season 3. Vaughn had to survive; he had to find a way to move on. He created a new personality for himself that repressed the Vaughn that we love and adore, and Michael came out of it. Just trust me here; I know what I’m talking about. 
Okay, sorry, rant over.

The scene that I want to talk about is in APO Part 2; right near the beginning. Sydney is pissed; Jack had just stopped by to see if Sydney had told Nadia “what she knows”. We don’t know what she knows, but Jack is the primary target of her rage, Vaughn walks in (with what sounds like a key, but more later). Vaughn has no idea as to what “it” is, but he knows that the tension is, and has been strong for weeks now. 
Jack has now left; Sydney has to stop cooking dinner, apologizes to Vaughn and walks away. We get a great look from Vaughn, you can see the worry in his face, but he has no idea what’s going on. I imagine that he’s tried to understand the reason for the tension for some time now. Remember, I strongly believe that after the end of season 3 Vaughn is a fan of Jack’s, they now have a similar history, although Vaughn doesn’t know how similar, but another similarity is about to be added, and he knows from experience that Sydney is much happier when she is on good terms with Jack. I don’t think that Vaughn immediately went to her. I think he took a few moments, did a few grown up things, turn off the oven and stove, etc, etc, and let Sydney have a few moments. He knows Sydney better than he knows himself at this point. So he knows that Sydney needs time sometimes.
So when he does go into the bedroom, and asks the same question that he has asked in various ways, Sydney has been waiting for him. Finally deciding to break down some of the walls she formed since waking up in Hong Kong, and the four months since Vaughn killed Lauren. I don’t think that Vaughn was expecting her to answer, but she did.
She tells him, “It was Lauren that told me.” Anything that has to do with Lauren is still not on his list of topics he wants to cover, but he doesn’t judge, doesn’t jump in with a “you can’t believe her” statement, a simple “what?” is all he asks. She starts her story, and he doesn’t rush her, and she says all the things that would be on the top of my list of things to say when talking about the Ice Bitch. I digress.
She tells him it was a safety deposit box in Wittenberg, he has this look that I love, but that could be my Michael Vartan thing though, but the look almost says, “A safety deposit box, in a foreign city, I understand why you had to check it out.” Like he knows her and her affinity for hiding things in safety deposit boxes and knows that she has to investigate one if brought to her attention. In season 5, at a safety deposit box, she gets sucked in again and it’s to her detriment there too. My point, he knows that she can’t resist that temptation. 
But seeing that he’s going to finally get to the real reason behind the tension, ignoring that the info came from Lauren, and all of the issues he’s going through with that, he still goes in and sits next to her and listens. Did I explain that well enough, he listened! Nothing else, he doesn’t touch her, nothing more than a sigh and a smile when she says out loud that the temptation was just too strong, like I knew it, but said nothing. Said nothing; just plain sat down near her and listened. 
That right there shows so much unconditional love towards Sydney. Not interrupting, no personal thoughts about how Lauren has ruined something else, even being out of her eye line allowing her to look away from him while telling the story. He doesn’t coax her; he is just there for her. Right here, even if it didn’t go any further, I would still love this scene. Just seeing how well he knows her, her needs and how much she needs Jack back in her life. He knows that she needs Jack, more than he needs to rage against all that is and was Lauren. I love it.
Here’s where it gets good though, (or more precisely, even better) Sydney tells him that the box contained files, and that she knew before she even knew, then asking him if that made sense. It is only when prompted that Vaughn speaks, and it’s said simply, not rushing her, “what was it?” Once again not mentioning Lauren or the fact that maybe it was planted by Lauren just to cause issues like the one here. But simple, helping her get where she needed to go.
Sydney then says that the files were about Irina and all the horrible stuff that she had done. Nothing that was new information and Vaughn simply nods his head. Now to recap; Sydney, the woman Vaughn loves more than anything is taking to him about his dead wife, who was a traitor and betrayed everything he believed in and ruined everything else. The same woman, he had to kill to make sure that Sydney wouldn’t get shot by her, and he now can’t officially divorce because she is dead, so he burned their house down. Now add to that the only other person that could even come close in the contest of who he hates more, Irina Derevko. Sydney’s mother and the person who took his father from him when he was eight years old, I think that it’s fair to assume that Vaughn is just happy that Lauren and Irina (or Laura) never met in real life. (Even though, I’m pretty sure that Irina was watching Lauren very, very carefully.)
She continues on with her story, all the while Vaughn is trying to process everything, especially since it deals with these three women. Then the story gets interesting, Jack had put in a request to terminate Irina. There is a moment where it looked like Vaughn wanted to jump from the rooftop, the woman who murdered his dad is dead, the two worst women ever created, as far as he’s concerned, are both dead. But instead, he’s seeing the ramifications that it is having on her. He’s seeing someone he loves, who had reunited with their parent who was also ripped from their life at a young age, albeit in a strange and far from ideal circumstance, being ripped away again. Only this time, by the one person that had finally become the ally that she really needed, but didn’t have growing up, her own father. 
Vaughn doesn’t see this as a personal gain, in this moment; he finally touches her shoulder to remind her that he was there. No pushes, no words, just a simple hand and then letting her go where she wanted, and needed. He simply listened and showed her once again, that no matter what happened, he would be there for her, in whatever way he could. But he wasn’t going to lose her again. She simply folded into his arms, him just holding her, and comforting her as she breaks down. He gives her a simple kiss on her arm as a reminder that he loves her. But that’s all. He listened, and in that moment loved her more than he has ever loved anyone.
Anyway, there it is. A way too lengthy breakdown of a one minute scene, accomplished with my thumbs on my phone. So any and all errors are blamed on that, and not my random thoughts crashing into each other and not making sense half the time. 
But it’s my blog and I can ramble if I want to. 
I hope you enjoyed, and hopefully I will be back soon(ish).

Wednesday, November 16, 2016

I'm back!

So I’m back, at least I’m going to try and be.  You may have noticed that the videos that I wanted to update haven’t been updated, and you still can’t view them, I will work on fixing those eventually, but it will take some time. I would rather spend my time getting back into the analysis of each episode and the effect it had on the Sydney/Vaughn relationship.  

Also I have mentioned it in other posts, but thank you for your patience with me as I had to take a break from all responsibilities and hobbies while I healed, and took care of myself and family.  I really appreciated your kind notes, as well as encouragement to keep going on this blog. It really meant a lot to me.  As for this blog going forward, I have given myself a goal of posting a breakdown of an episode every week. I’m not sure if I will be able to achieve that goal, but I am certainly going to try. 

Alias has so many amazing story lines throughout the series, but as I’ve mentioned in other posts, the one that always stands out to me is the missing two years. I have so many theories about what happened during that time, but that is for another post. But as I was going through this blog last night, I was trying to figure out what my mind set was during each post, as well as watching some of the episodes leading into season four to get me ready to post about Alias again. I ended up finding a deleted scene from season 4 episode 2, it’s a scene that has Sydney and Vaughn discussing their relationship and what Jack did. (I’ll post it in that episodes recap.) But Sydney tells Vaughn that building their relationship back up is going to take some time. Because they aren’t the same people anymore, and that they need time to get to know each other again.  I’ve seen that deleted scene many times, in fact I am the one who loaded it onto YouTube, but last night it stuck with me. I’ve spent most of the last two years going from close to dead and barely remembering anything when the chemo was at its worst, to rebuilding my life back up. During that time, we built a new home, and I’ve been able to go back to doing some of the things that I love doing that I haven’t been able to do. Through all that I’ve discovered that I have become a different person as well. I have done things that I swore I would never ever do. I only tell you this because while I do still love and adore Sydney and Vaughn and all of the Alias adventures I’m not sure if I can tell the story in the same way as I used to. I hope that as I go back into the series, like I was in 2013, I will be able to find that voice that my readers have come to enjoy, but it may take time and my experiences may have me looking at some scenes in a new light. Thank you in advance for your continued patience and support.
**** The above portion was written over a month ago, I was so excited to get back to doing this. I had/have the season four opener half way written and I was/am really happy with the direction that it was going in. I felt like I was kinda getting back into the groove. Then one night, I sat down to start watching/thinking/analyzing/writing and Alias had disappeared from Netflix. I was heartbroken. I have the DVD’s but with my work situation, working off my DVD’s wasn’t something that I could really work with in the conditions that I am working in. So I was trying to come up with some other solution. Then tonight I was reading a TVLine article that piqued my interest with an excerpt about Bones. Then as a total bonus for me it mentioned Alias in it, and I found out that Hulu is now streaming Alias. So a solution has been found and I am going to be turning it on and getting back to the episode breakdown. By the way, my daughter thought that I was completely crazy when I found out, since I suddenly sat up strait and screamed “Yes!” when I discovered it. By the way, I found it completely ironic that the article mentioned watching APO part 1 in the Alias portion. ****

Come back soon to see the first episode breakdown of season 4. I know earlier I mentioned I will try for every week, but since the holidays are approaching, and I am in the middle of my family’s birthday season, today is the 2nd birthday out of 5 in a 50 times period with Christmas a week later. So I’ll try and aim for the every week or so starting in January. I’m really excited to get going on this again, season four is my least favorite season, but I am finding a lot of fun stuff that I want to touch on, and some of my favorite Syd & Vaughn moments come from season four. It’s going to be fun. Plus the Sydney & Vaughn relationship roller coaster over the next two seasons is one you won’t want to miss.

Sunday, May 22, 2016

Thank You For Five Incredible Years

Ten years ago tonight, Alias said it's final goodbyes. And it's days like to day that I wish I had watched Alias while it was on the air. If I had been a fan at that time, I most likely would be bawling my eyes out and wishing for more. But as a current fan, who is still in love with the show 3 years after my first viewing, am ready to celebrate the ten year anniversary of that final moment. Watching Sydney, Vaughn, Isabelle, Jack, and Dixon walk down to beach to watch the sun set, was the perfect ending. Sydney and Vaughn have finally found their happily ever after. I am so happy for them, with all the obstacles life threw their direction, that they were able to find some semblance of a normal life. Or as close to normal as was possible for them.


I will go over more in detail when I get to this episode, (yes I am still working on it) but in this episode Sydney had to watch, and ultimately leave, as Jack Bristow was bleeding out. As hard as it is to watch SpyDaddy injured to this extent, at least he went out in style, and making sure that Sloane would never be able to harm his family any longer. Back to my original train of thought, after having to leave her father behind, knowing that she most likely would never have a chance to see him again, Sydney has to go save the world, and the only way to succeed would be through her mother. I couldn't even imagine having to go through everything she had to in just this one episode. However, the cherry that tops this episode so perfectly is that we were able to take a view into some of the vital moments in Sydney's life, that led her to this place.

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 There are some truly great moments from this episode, and I can't wait until I get back in gear and work on this blog a little more faithfully.

Tuesday, September 1, 2015

Personal Battles

February 2014 - I had so much hair it was ridiculous

The last time that I posted anything to the blog was on June 4th of 2014, and I had mentioned that I was having some personal issues come up, as well as falling into a new fandom. Looking back, I know that I had some issues going on, but I didn’t know that the worst was still to come. So over a year later, I am finally back and this will be moving forward.

At that time I had been dealing with a repressed memory that I had somehow managed to hide in my subconscious for 12 years. And I was having a really hard time dealing with the memories that were horrible. Although I am incredibly happy that I was able to suppress them, if I hadn’t I’m not sure if I would have been mentally capable of getting married or having my three beautiful girls. 

WARNING: This may cause triggers for some people… If you want to skip this portion, scroll past the next two paragraphs. 

What had happened was when I was in college; I had been casually dating a guy from my theater classes. We had just finished watching a movie, and since we had weird schedules, it was in the middle of the night. We started making out, and he wanted to take things further. I was only 19 and incredibly na├»ve about anything sex related, so I told him that I wasn’t comfortable with taking the next step. It was at that point that I told him that I better go home. Before I could fully stand up he grabbed me and pulled me down onto his bed. He then pulled both of my arms above my head and held me down. He told me, “I’m not going to have sex with you until you agree to have sex, but I’m not going to let you go until you do either.” 

I still don’t remember too much about that night, thankfully, I do remember that I was trapped for two or more hours in that position.  He never fully raped me, although I remember getting really close to agreeing to have sex just so I could get away. While no actual sex happened he did violate me in other ways.  It took me months to fully recover from having the trauma of these memories come back.  I was diagnosed with PTSD and I still have issues sometimes, 20 months later. I don’t think that I will ever get over it fully, and I have become super over protective of my girls, but I have mostly recovered.

Now, as I mentioned above the last post was from June 4th, 2014. I had thought that my personal issues were getting better and that I would be able to find the time to get back to this. I had missed dissecting Alias and the weird joy that it bring to me. Unfortunately, 2014 had other plans for me. I can officially say that 2014 was the worst year of my life, and I started the year with meeting Michael Vartan.  I had spent almost all of May in the hospital dealing with a severe kidney infection that required two surgeries, one of them an emergency surgery at 1:00am. Plus they found that E-Coli had found its way into my blood stream. So I was already dealing with a lot. On the plus side, the company that I work for was offering a special leave at the time. It entailed me not working for two years, but not losing seniority, but I also kept my insurance and flight benefits. With all that was going on, my husband (who was only working part time and going to school), and I decided that the leave needed to happen to give me a chance to fully get better. I was approved on June 12th. I was beyond elated, for the first time in 14 years I would have to work.  

The elation didn’t last long unfortunately. June 16th I was sitting in bed and working one of my last shifts before my leave began.  All of a sudden pain shot through my left breast.  It took every ounce of self-control I had to not to start screaming select four letter words to my customer that I had on the phone.  I’ve never been tasered, but it felt what I imagine it would feel like. The pain lasted for months. When I first saw my doctor about it, she thought it might be an infection, but when the pain continued she sent me to get a mammogram and an ultrasound. I wasn’t able to get in for that appointment until July 9th. So I had a few more weeks of constant extreme pain.  After the mammogram and ultrasound, the radiologist came in and talked to me. He said that from what he saw it could be an infection, but it was more likely to be breast cancer. My heart dropped into my stomach, even though in the back of my mind I had the nagging voice that it had to be cancer.  He wanted to do a biopsy, so I told him I was available anytime, and how soon could we get it scheduled. He told me that he was calling my regular doctor to get the official request, but he wanted to do it in the next few minutes. 

The biopsy hurt like hell and you should have seen the bruises, the mass was the size of a softball, looking back it’s still very surreal.  We had to wait about two weeks for the official diagnoses, because the pathologists couldn’t agree on what the problem was, so they sent it to another pathologist who is considered the best in the world. It was breast cancer, but they told me that I was incredibly lucky because even though the mass was huge, all but one small section was in stage 0; the small section was in stage 1. But they believed that they would be able to remove all of it with surgery and chemotherapy wouldn’t be needed.  At that point I met with a surgeon and a lot of other tests were done over the next few weeks. My husband and I talked a lot about my different options, and since I was only 31 at the time, and the chances of it coming back was high, we made the decision to go with a double mastectomy and hopefully avoid the cancer coming back. So we met with the plastic surgeon and scheduled the surgery.

August 26th, six weeks after the biopsy, I went in for surgery. We had joked that since it was our 12 ½ year anniversary, that we were getting started with a new boob package as a gift. We were trying everything we could to lighten the situation. When I woke up, I was in the worst pain I had ever experienced. Although I don’t know what I expected, I knew that removing both of my breasts wouldn’t be an easy experience.  The other thing I found is that your arm muscles are more connected to breast tissue than I thought.  I also woke up to a temporary medical bracelet on my left arm. It said; DO NOT USE THIS LIMB. When I looked around the room, there were signs strategically placed, stating not to use my left arm. I looked over to my husband and asked him what was up with the signs and he told me that the surgery was successful; however they ended up having to take all the lymph nodes out of my left arm. The cancer had spread into the lymphatic system.  When my surgeon came into the room, he told me that I would indeed have to see an oncologist, because I had what is called the HER2+ gene. And that in younger women with breast cancer, it causes the cancer to advance quickly. They removed all they could and that they were still doing testing on my lymph nodes to figure out how advanced it had become.
The video above, I recently found and it was right up my ally. I really have had the best support system throughout all of this.

I met with my oncologist soon after. She told me that by the time the surgery took place, the cancer had advanced into stage 3; also that they would have to be very aggressive with the chemotherapy treatments. In addition, we were told that if I hadn’t have caught it when I did, the cancer would’ve advanced to the point that I would’ve been terminal by Halloween and possibly dead by Christmas. I don’t think that I had ever felt so scared (and lucky) in my life.

The next week was full of all the things that had to be done before I started chemo. I had to visit the dentist, since I wouldn’t be able to undergo any cleanings while on chemo. I had to do a special heart scan to make sure that my heart wouldn’t give out because of how harsh the chemo drugs would be on it. I also had to have a port placed, since my veins were unlikely to hold up against the drugs.  I was to undergo six cycles of the really harsh chemotherapy drugs, one treatment every three weeks. In addition they were going to be giving me another chemotherapy type drug to fight the HER2+ gene. However I would need to have 17 cycles of that one, once again every three weeks. 
October 2014 - 15 days after starting chemo all of my hair was gone
A year later, I have gone through so much, more than I ever thought that I would be able to endure. My hair is starting to grow back. I’m finally starting to get some of my strength back. I’m finally starting to feel up to doing the things that I loved doing before all of this stress happened. Best of all I have my last treatment in two weeks, and I’m officially in remission. (Also I met Michael Vartan again in January, but I’ll do a separate post for that.)

Please know that I am not posting this to get pity comments, (I’ve had way more pity than I would like over the last year) but to let you know why I haven’t been able to post here. I had a lot of grand plans for how I wanted this blog to work. It makes me so happy to see that people are coming to the page and somewhat enjoy my dissecting what I see in Alias. 

As an FYI I have done a few re-watches during the past year and I have a huge list of things that I missed or that I want to include here sitting in my notepad on my phone. Also, my daughter had stated that she had wanted to start watching Alias, and I told her only if I watched it with her. Two things have come from that; 1) it is almost as if I am getting the chance to watch Alias again for the first time, 2) I haven’t been watching it looking for clues and things to try and figure out what I should put up here, so I’ve noticed some things that I completely missed in other viewings. It’s fun watching it through an 11 year olds perspective.
That’s it for my personal crap. I have already started the post for APO part 1. And I am so excited for it, even if it is my least favorite season.  Also I’ve been watching season four and looking for it’s good points and it definitely has quite a few of them; including some of my favorite scenes.

The last thing that I wanted to put out there is I know that currently Jennifer Garner and Michael Vartan have been in the news. A lot of people are saying that Jennifer is turning to Michael in the turmoil of her divorce and that he is in a good position to help her coming off of his own divorce. I just want to remind everyone that all of the parties involved are real people. We don’t know the exact circumstances of what is really going on. I will say that I have never been a fan of Ben Affleck, but I think they deserve their privacy, especially since children are involved. The other thing, I’ve seen a lot of attacks on Lauren (Skarr) Vartan, once again we don’t know what happened, so I don’t think that we should be judging. I will say that I have interacted with her online a few times, and she has been nothing but sweet, kind, and caring. She even contacted me on Instagram (even though she doesn’t follow me) in a private IG chat asking me if everything was okay since she hadn’t seen me on there in a while. I let her know what was going on, and we ended up chatting for close to an hour. I never brought up Michael Vartan, and if I chat with her again I’m not going to. I am truly saddened that these four people (plus three little ones) have to go through all of this.

I set up this blog as a place to talk about how perfect Sydney Bristow and Michael Vaughn are for each other. Even after entering more fandoms than I ever should be a part of, I still believe that Sydney and Vaughn are the best couple out there. I did end up making it more than just their love; I’ve included my own personal stuff, and my crush on Michael Vartan has factored in. I’ve even expounded on more of the episodes than I ever planned on doing.  But I am going to put this out here; Please do not use this forum to comment on how much you hate an actual, in real life person, over things that we have no personal knowledge about beyond what we read in a magazine! However if you want to hate on Sloane, Evil Francie, or Lauren Reed, go for it I will fully support those hatred remarks. 

Thanks for sticking around even in my absence.

Wednesday, June 4, 2014

It's been a while I know...

I'm on my phone and it's 3:30 am so this will be a very short post. When I posted my last post back in January I had a lot of good intentions. I wanted to fix the videos that disappeared from the earlier posts on the blog, as well as some other things. Unfortunately as it often happens life gets in the way. 

I had some major personal issues come up, I may end up sharing them here at one point because it's a story I want to tell, but I'm not sure how or where to share it the best way for me to have it be therapeutic. I also found a new to me show. With what was going on in my life, finding this show was the best form of therapy I could've ever hoped for, without knowing it was a possibility. It's Veronica Mars. She became the hero that I needed in my life. Oddly enough I was able to get closer to overcoming my own obstacles by living vicariously through her. Plus the major relationship in the show actually rivals my love for Sydney & Vaughn. Syd and Vaughn will always be my number one choice when it comes to my favorite on screen couple, but Veronica Mars & Logan Echolls are a very close second. And I do mean very close. 

While I have been wrapped up in a new fandom, I've come to a few conclusions, 1) I have to recant my statement in an earlier post about despising fan fiction. It turns out that I am actually a huge fan and I'm actually thinking of writing my own. If I do it would be all about the missing two years. You know how obsessed I am over those years. Ionly  thought I hated fan fiction because I had only seen Sydney and Sark stories. But I end up reading a new fan fic every night from the Veronica Mars fandom and I'm now an addict. 2) I've thought about it a lot lately how I need to come back and work on this blog, but something hit me tonight and I realized how much I miss this blog and analyzing every move that Sydney and Vaughn make/made to become the perfect couple. 

So it may not be incredibly soon, but I've decided to put this blog back on my list of priorities. I know it made me happy, and I need to get back to the things that I enjoy after dealing with all of my personal crap. 

So hopeful I will be back soon to start right in on season four and see what the APO has in store for us.   

Wednesday, January 29, 2014

Before We Begin Season Four...

This will be an incredibly short post, especially by my standards.  But I wanted to give you a quick update on what will be happening with the blog, as well as give you the chance to watch season four as I will be presenting it.

As far as the blog is concerned, I am still working on it, but due to some major personal issues that have come up in my life; I have even less time than I had before, at least in some ways.  But I am working through them and trying to get my life back in order.  I won’t be posting any new episodes for a couple weeks however.  Although as I have been looking through some of the older posts, I see that I had left a lot out, as well as the videos that I posted at the beginning of the project, when I wasn’t posting clips that I downloaded and then uploaded to YouTube and using someone else’s, have all been removed from YouTube.  So I plan on going back and downloading the clips and properly uploading them onto YouTube at the correct permissions status so they won’t be taken down.  Every few posts that I update, I will come back and do a new post with the links to the episodes that I have fixed, as well as adding new video’s or clips to the post.

While working on updating the blog to be more consistent and have usable clips, I have also found myself a short project for myself on Tumblr.  It’s called the 47 Days of Alias.  So every day (hopefully) I will answer the question of the day for 47 days.  You can find my Tumblr here;  Feel free to look around at the rest of my Tumblr while you are there though.  This challenge does cover all of Alias, and my thoughts there and not just Sydney and Vaughn, although my first three days have all ended up correlating with them somehow.   Below are the questions for each day.  The challenge was created by another Tumblr user.  I only made the picture below.
Now getting ready for season four, you should know that it was filmed in a different order from what it aired.  I remember watching Alias my first time around and being very confused by the jumping around in character timelines.  Especially since this was supposed to be the season of stand-alone episodes and making it easier to understand.  At first I attributed the confusion to the fact that I had watched the entire series in a little under a week.  But then I ran across an article on season four, I wish I could find it now, that stated that season four was aired in the wrong order from what was written.  So I immediately took out my phone and took note of what they called the season four true order.  So on my second time through I watched it in this order, and it made a lot more since to me.  For instance I had wondered why Sydney and Vaughn were so comfortable with each other in Welcome to Liberty Village (E5) especially with the admission of the planned marriage proposal and the impromptu stop in Paris for dinner, and then have Sydney be so wary of Vaughn and wanting to take it slow in Nocturne (6) before she was infected and then her admitting her fears to Vaughn.  Seeing that the True Order placed Nocturne as well as others in front of Liberty Village made the their storyline flow so much better.  So below I have the True Order of Season Four.  Since I will be a little while before I jump into APO part 1, I suggest watching in this order to see if it makes more sense to you.
As I said this was going to be short, compared to my usual posts, so I just wanted to thank you for being patient with me as I take this Alias journey.  I’m not sure how many people actually read this blog on a regular basis, but I know that there are a few of you and I thank each and every one of you for reading my long rants and theories about how Sydney and Vaughn became the perfect couple.  Feel free to email me at any time if you have any questions concerning Alias, or if you just want someone to talk about Alias with.  I’m also open to suggestions for songs to be used in clip videos for YouTube which has become another new hobby of mine.  But I only have clips for Sydney and Vaughn.   So like I said email me anytime; 

This is my most recent clip video that I made for Sydney and Vaughn.  The first time I heard the song I knew that I had to make it into a clip video for Sydney and Vaughn, but for some reason or another I couldn’t ever get it to work the way I wanted it to.  Once I gave up on the scene that I thought had to be included, the rest fell together nicely I think.  I hope you enjoy it. See you soon. :)