Wednesday, November 16, 2016

I'm back!




So I’m back, at least I’m going to try and be.  You may have noticed that the videos that I wanted to update haven’t been updated, and you still can’t view them, I will work on fixing those eventually, but it will take some time. I would rather spend my time getting back into the analysis of each episode and the effect it had on the Sydney/Vaughn relationship.  

Also I have mentioned it in other posts, but thank you for your patience with me as I had to take a break from all responsibilities and hobbies while I healed, and took care of myself and family.  I really appreciated your kind notes, as well as encouragement to keep going on this blog. It really meant a lot to me.  As for this blog going forward, I have given myself a goal of posting a breakdown of an episode every week. I’m not sure if I will be able to achieve that goal, but I am certainly going to try. 

Alias has so many amazing story lines throughout the series, but as I’ve mentioned in other posts, the one that always stands out to me is the missing two years. I have so many theories about what happened during that time, but that is for another post. But as I was going through this blog last night, I was trying to figure out what my mind set was during each post, as well as watching some of the episodes leading into season four to get me ready to post about Alias again. I ended up finding a deleted scene from season 4 episode 2, it’s a scene that has Sydney and Vaughn discussing their relationship and what Jack did. (I’ll post it in that episodes recap.) But Sydney tells Vaughn that building their relationship back up is going to take some time. Because they aren’t the same people anymore, and that they need time to get to know each other again.  I’ve seen that deleted scene many times, in fact I am the one who loaded it onto YouTube, but last night it stuck with me. I’ve spent most of the last two years going from close to dead and barely remembering anything when the chemo was at its worst, to rebuilding my life back up. During that time, we built a new home, and I’ve been able to go back to doing some of the things that I love doing that I haven’t been able to do. Through all that I’ve discovered that I have become a different person as well. I have done things that I swore I would never ever do. I only tell you this because while I do still love and adore Sydney and Vaughn and all of the Alias adventures I’m not sure if I can tell the story in the same way as I used to. I hope that as I go back into the series, like I was in 2013, I will be able to find that voice that my readers have come to enjoy, but it may take time and my experiences may have me looking at some scenes in a new light. Thank you in advance for your continued patience and support.
 
**** The above portion was written over a month ago, I was so excited to get back to doing this. I had/have the season four opener half way written and I was/am really happy with the direction that it was going in. I felt like I was kinda getting back into the groove. Then one night, I sat down to start watching/thinking/analyzing/writing and Alias had disappeared from Netflix. I was heartbroken. I have the DVD’s but with my work situation, working off my DVD’s wasn’t something that I could really work with in the conditions that I am working in. So I was trying to come up with some other solution. Then tonight I was reading a TVLine article that piqued my interest with an excerpt about Bones. Then as a total bonus for me it mentioned Alias in it, and I found out that Hulu is now streaming Alias. So a solution has been found and I am going to be turning it on and getting back to the episode breakdown. By the way, my daughter thought that I was completely crazy when I found out, since I suddenly sat up strait and screamed “Yes!” when I discovered it. By the way, I found it completely ironic that the article mentioned watching APO part 1 in the Alias portion. ****

Come back soon to see the first episode breakdown of season 4. I know earlier I mentioned I will try for every week, but since the holidays are approaching, and I am in the middle of my family’s birthday season, today is the 2nd birthday out of 5 in a 50 times period with Christmas a week later. So I’ll try and aim for the every week or so starting in January. I’m really excited to get going on this again, season four is my least favorite season, but I am finding a lot of fun stuff that I want to touch on, and some of my favorite Syd & Vaughn moments come from season four. It’s going to be fun. Plus the Sydney & Vaughn relationship roller coaster over the next two seasons is one you won’t want to miss.

Sunday, May 22, 2016

Thank You For Five Incredible Years


Ten years ago tonight, Alias said it's final goodbyes. And it's days like to day that I wish I had watched Alias while it was on the air. If I had been a fan at that time, I most likely would be bawling my eyes out and wishing for more. But as a current fan, who is still in love with the show 3 years after my first viewing, am ready to celebrate the ten year anniversary of that final moment. Watching Sydney, Vaughn, Isabelle, Jack, and Dixon walk down to beach to watch the sun set, was the perfect ending. Sydney and Vaughn have finally found their happily ever after. I am so happy for them, with all the obstacles life threw their direction, that they were able to find some semblance of a normal life. Or as close to normal as was possible for them.

            




I will go over more in detail when I get to this episode, (yes I am still working on it) but in this episode Sydney had to watch, and ultimately leave, as Jack Bristow was bleeding out. As hard as it is to watch SpyDaddy injured to this extent, at least he went out in style, and making sure that Sloane would never be able to harm his family any longer. Back to my original train of thought, after having to leave her father behind, knowing that she most likely would never have a chance to see him again, Sydney has to go save the world, and the only way to succeed would be through her mother. I couldn't even imagine having to go through everything she had to in just this one episode. However, the cherry that tops this episode so perfectly is that we were able to take a view into some of the vital moments in Sydney's life, that led her to this place.

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 There are some truly great moments from this episode, and I can't wait until I get back in gear and work on this blog a little more faithfully.




Tuesday, September 1, 2015

Personal Battles

February 2014 - I had so much hair it was ridiculous

The last time that I posted anything to the blog was on June 4th of 2014, and I had mentioned that I was having some personal issues come up, as well as falling into a new fandom. Looking back, I know that I had some issues going on, but I didn’t know that the worst was still to come. So over a year later, I am finally back and this will be moving forward.

At that time I had been dealing with a repressed memory that I had somehow managed to hide in my subconscious for 12 years. And I was having a really hard time dealing with the memories that were horrible. Although I am incredibly happy that I was able to suppress them, if I hadn’t I’m not sure if I would have been mentally capable of getting married or having my three beautiful girls. 

WARNING: This may cause triggers for some people… If you want to skip this portion, scroll past the next two paragraphs. 

What had happened was when I was in college; I had been casually dating a guy from my theater classes. We had just finished watching a movie, and since we had weird schedules, it was in the middle of the night. We started making out, and he wanted to take things further. I was only 19 and incredibly na├»ve about anything sex related, so I told him that I wasn’t comfortable with taking the next step. It was at that point that I told him that I better go home. Before I could fully stand up he grabbed me and pulled me down onto his bed. He then pulled both of my arms above my head and held me down. He told me, “I’m not going to have sex with you until you agree to have sex, but I’m not going to let you go until you do either.” 

I still don’t remember too much about that night, thankfully, I do remember that I was trapped for two or more hours in that position.  He never fully raped me, although I remember getting really close to agreeing to have sex just so I could get away. While no actual sex happened he did violate me in other ways.  It took me months to fully recover from having the trauma of these memories come back.  I was diagnosed with PTSD and I still have issues sometimes, 20 months later. I don’t think that I will ever get over it fully, and I have become super over protective of my girls, but I have mostly recovered.

Now, as I mentioned above the last post was from June 4th, 2014. I had thought that my personal issues were getting better and that I would be able to find the time to get back to this. I had missed dissecting Alias and the weird joy that it bring to me. Unfortunately, 2014 had other plans for me. I can officially say that 2014 was the worst year of my life, and I started the year with meeting Michael Vartan.  I had spent almost all of May in the hospital dealing with a severe kidney infection that required two surgeries, one of them an emergency surgery at 1:00am. Plus they found that E-Coli had found its way into my blood stream. So I was already dealing with a lot. On the plus side, the company that I work for was offering a special leave at the time. It entailed me not working for two years, but not losing seniority, but I also kept my insurance and flight benefits. With all that was going on, my husband (who was only working part time and going to school), and I decided that the leave needed to happen to give me a chance to fully get better. I was approved on June 12th. I was beyond elated, for the first time in 14 years I would have to work.  

The elation didn’t last long unfortunately. June 16th I was sitting in bed and working one of my last shifts before my leave began.  All of a sudden pain shot through my left breast.  It took every ounce of self-control I had to not to start screaming select four letter words to my customer that I had on the phone.  I’ve never been tasered, but it felt what I imagine it would feel like. The pain lasted for months. When I first saw my doctor about it, she thought it might be an infection, but when the pain continued she sent me to get a mammogram and an ultrasound. I wasn’t able to get in for that appointment until July 9th. So I had a few more weeks of constant extreme pain.  After the mammogram and ultrasound, the radiologist came in and talked to me. He said that from what he saw it could be an infection, but it was more likely to be breast cancer. My heart dropped into my stomach, even though in the back of my mind I had the nagging voice that it had to be cancer.  He wanted to do a biopsy, so I told him I was available anytime, and how soon could we get it scheduled. He told me that he was calling my regular doctor to get the official request, but he wanted to do it in the next few minutes. 

The biopsy hurt like hell and you should have seen the bruises, the mass was the size of a softball, looking back it’s still very surreal.  We had to wait about two weeks for the official diagnoses, because the pathologists couldn’t agree on what the problem was, so they sent it to another pathologist who is considered the best in the world. It was breast cancer, but they told me that I was incredibly lucky because even though the mass was huge, all but one small section was in stage 0; the small section was in stage 1. But they believed that they would be able to remove all of it with surgery and chemotherapy wouldn’t be needed.  At that point I met with a surgeon and a lot of other tests were done over the next few weeks. My husband and I talked a lot about my different options, and since I was only 31 at the time, and the chances of it coming back was high, we made the decision to go with a double mastectomy and hopefully avoid the cancer coming back. So we met with the plastic surgeon and scheduled the surgery.

August 26th, six weeks after the biopsy, I went in for surgery. We had joked that since it was our 12 ½ year anniversary, that we were getting started with a new boob package as a gift. We were trying everything we could to lighten the situation. When I woke up, I was in the worst pain I had ever experienced. Although I don’t know what I expected, I knew that removing both of my breasts wouldn’t be an easy experience.  The other thing I found is that your arm muscles are more connected to breast tissue than I thought.  I also woke up to a temporary medical bracelet on my left arm. It said; DO NOT USE THIS LIMB. When I looked around the room, there were signs strategically placed, stating not to use my left arm. I looked over to my husband and asked him what was up with the signs and he told me that the surgery was successful; however they ended up having to take all the lymph nodes out of my left arm. The cancer had spread into the lymphatic system.  When my surgeon came into the room, he told me that I would indeed have to see an oncologist, because I had what is called the HER2+ gene. And that in younger women with breast cancer, it causes the cancer to advance quickly. They removed all they could and that they were still doing testing on my lymph nodes to figure out how advanced it had become.
The video above, I recently found and it was right up my ally. I really have had the best support system throughout all of this.

I met with my oncologist soon after. She told me that by the time the surgery took place, the cancer had advanced into stage 3; also that they would have to be very aggressive with the chemotherapy treatments. In addition, we were told that if I hadn’t have caught it when I did, the cancer would’ve advanced to the point that I would’ve been terminal by Halloween and possibly dead by Christmas. I don’t think that I had ever felt so scared (and lucky) in my life.

The next week was full of all the things that had to be done before I started chemo. I had to visit the dentist, since I wouldn’t be able to undergo any cleanings while on chemo. I had to do a special heart scan to make sure that my heart wouldn’t give out because of how harsh the chemo drugs would be on it. I also had to have a port placed, since my veins were unlikely to hold up against the drugs.  I was to undergo six cycles of the really harsh chemotherapy drugs, one treatment every three weeks. In addition they were going to be giving me another chemotherapy type drug to fight the HER2+ gene. However I would need to have 17 cycles of that one, once again every three weeks. 
October 2014 - 15 days after starting chemo all of my hair was gone
A year later, I have gone through so much, more than I ever thought that I would be able to endure. My hair is starting to grow back. I’m finally starting to get some of my strength back. I’m finally starting to feel up to doing the things that I loved doing before all of this stress happened. Best of all I have my last treatment in two weeks, and I’m officially in remission. (Also I met Michael Vartan again in January, but I’ll do a separate post for that.)

Please know that I am not posting this to get pity comments, (I’ve had way more pity than I would like over the last year) but to let you know why I haven’t been able to post here. I had a lot of grand plans for how I wanted this blog to work. It makes me so happy to see that people are coming to the page and somewhat enjoy my dissecting what I see in Alias. 

As an FYI I have done a few re-watches during the past year and I have a huge list of things that I missed or that I want to include here sitting in my notepad on my phone. Also, my daughter had stated that she had wanted to start watching Alias, and I told her only if I watched it with her. Two things have come from that; 1) it is almost as if I am getting the chance to watch Alias again for the first time, 2) I haven’t been watching it looking for clues and things to try and figure out what I should put up here, so I’ve noticed some things that I completely missed in other viewings. It’s fun watching it through an 11 year olds perspective.
That’s it for my personal crap. I have already started the post for APO part 1. And I am so excited for it, even if it is my least favorite season.  Also I’ve been watching season four and looking for it’s good points and it definitely has quite a few of them; including some of my favorite scenes.

The last thing that I wanted to put out there is I know that currently Jennifer Garner and Michael Vartan have been in the news. A lot of people are saying that Jennifer is turning to Michael in the turmoil of her divorce and that he is in a good position to help her coming off of his own divorce. I just want to remind everyone that all of the parties involved are real people. We don’t know the exact circumstances of what is really going on. I will say that I have never been a fan of Ben Affleck, but I think they deserve their privacy, especially since children are involved. The other thing, I’ve seen a lot of attacks on Lauren (Skarr) Vartan, once again we don’t know what happened, so I don’t think that we should be judging. I will say that I have interacted with her online a few times, and she has been nothing but sweet, kind, and caring. She even contacted me on Instagram (even though she doesn’t follow me) in a private IG chat asking me if everything was okay since she hadn’t seen me on there in a while. I let her know what was going on, and we ended up chatting for close to an hour. I never brought up Michael Vartan, and if I chat with her again I’m not going to. I am truly saddened that these four people (plus three little ones) have to go through all of this.

I set up this blog as a place to talk about how perfect Sydney Bristow and Michael Vaughn are for each other. Even after entering more fandoms than I ever should be a part of, I still believe that Sydney and Vaughn are the best couple out there. I did end up making it more than just their love; I’ve included my own personal stuff, and my crush on Michael Vartan has factored in. I’ve even expounded on more of the episodes than I ever planned on doing.  But I am going to put this out here; Please do not use this forum to comment on how much you hate an actual, in real life person, over things that we have no personal knowledge about beyond what we read in a magazine! However if you want to hate on Sloane, Evil Francie, or Lauren Reed, go for it I will fully support those hatred remarks. 

Thanks for sticking around even in my absence.

Wednesday, June 4, 2014

It's been a while I know...

I'm on my phone and it's 3:30 am so this will be a very short post. When I posted my last post back in January I had a lot of good intentions. I wanted to fix the videos that disappeared from the earlier posts on the blog, as well as some other things. Unfortunately as it often happens life gets in the way. 

I had some major personal issues come up, I may end up sharing them here at one point because it's a story I want to tell, but I'm not sure how or where to share it the best way for me to have it be therapeutic. I also found a new to me show. With what was going on in my life, finding this show was the best form of therapy I could've ever hoped for, without knowing it was a possibility. It's Veronica Mars. She became the hero that I needed in my life. Oddly enough I was able to get closer to overcoming my own obstacles by living vicariously through her. Plus the major relationship in the show actually rivals my love for Sydney & Vaughn. Syd and Vaughn will always be my number one choice when it comes to my favorite on screen couple, but Veronica Mars & Logan Echolls are a very close second. And I do mean very close. 

While I have been wrapped up in a new fandom, I've come to a few conclusions, 1) I have to recant my statement in an earlier post about despising fan fiction. It turns out that I am actually a huge fan and I'm actually thinking of writing my own. If I do it would be all about the missing two years. You know how obsessed I am over those years. Ionly  thought I hated fan fiction because I had only seen Sydney and Sark stories. But I end up reading a new fan fic every night from the Veronica Mars fandom and I'm now an addict. 2) I've thought about it a lot lately how I need to come back and work on this blog, but something hit me tonight and I realized how much I miss this blog and analyzing every move that Sydney and Vaughn make/made to become the perfect couple. 

So it may not be incredibly soon, but I've decided to put this blog back on my list of priorities. I know it made me happy, and I need to get back to the things that I enjoy after dealing with all of my personal crap. 

So hopeful I will be back soon to start right in on season four and see what the APO has in store for us.   

Wednesday, January 29, 2014

Before We Begin Season Four...



 
This will be an incredibly short post, especially by my standards.  But I wanted to give you a quick update on what will be happening with the blog, as well as give you the chance to watch season four as I will be presenting it.

As far as the blog is concerned, I am still working on it, but due to some major personal issues that have come up in my life; I have even less time than I had before, at least in some ways.  But I am working through them and trying to get my life back in order.  I won’t be posting any new episodes for a couple weeks however.  Although as I have been looking through some of the older posts, I see that I had left a lot out, as well as the videos that I posted at the beginning of the project, when I wasn’t posting clips that I downloaded and then uploaded to YouTube and using someone else’s, have all been removed from YouTube.  So I plan on going back and downloading the clips and properly uploading them onto YouTube at the correct permissions status so they won’t be taken down.  Every few posts that I update, I will come back and do a new post with the links to the episodes that I have fixed, as well as adding new video’s or clips to the post.

While working on updating the blog to be more consistent and have usable clips, I have also found myself a short project for myself on Tumblr.  It’s called the 47 Days of Alias.  So every day (hopefully) I will answer the question of the day for 47 days.  You can find my Tumblr here; http://aliaspsy.tumblr.com/tagged/47-days-of-alias  Feel free to look around at the rest of my Tumblr while you are there though.  This challenge does cover all of Alias, and my thoughts there and not just Sydney and Vaughn, although my first three days have all ended up correlating with them somehow.   Below are the questions for each day.  The challenge was created by another Tumblr user.  I only made the picture below.
Now getting ready for season four, you should know that it was filmed in a different order from what it aired.  I remember watching Alias my first time around and being very confused by the jumping around in character timelines.  Especially since this was supposed to be the season of stand-alone episodes and making it easier to understand.  At first I attributed the confusion to the fact that I had watched the entire series in a little under a week.  But then I ran across an article on season four, I wish I could find it now, that stated that season four was aired in the wrong order from what was written.  So I immediately took out my phone and took note of what they called the season four true order.  So on my second time through I watched it in this order, and it made a lot more since to me.  For instance I had wondered why Sydney and Vaughn were so comfortable with each other in Welcome to Liberty Village (E5) especially with the admission of the planned marriage proposal and the impromptu stop in Paris for dinner, and then have Sydney be so wary of Vaughn and wanting to take it slow in Nocturne (6) before she was infected and then her admitting her fears to Vaughn.  Seeing that the True Order placed Nocturne as well as others in front of Liberty Village made the their storyline flow so much better.  So below I have the True Order of Season Four.  Since I will be a little while before I jump into APO part 1, I suggest watching in this order to see if it makes more sense to you.
As I said this was going to be short, compared to my usual posts, so I just wanted to thank you for being patient with me as I take this Alias journey.  I’m not sure how many people actually read this blog on a regular basis, but I know that there are a few of you and I thank each and every one of you for reading my long rants and theories about how Sydney and Vaughn became the perfect couple.  Feel free to email me at any time if you have any questions concerning Alias, or if you just want someone to talk about Alias with.  I’m also open to suggestions for songs to be used in clip videos for YouTube which has become another new hobby of mine.  But I only have clips for Sydney and Vaughn.   So like I said email me anytime; AliasPsy47@gmail.com 

This is my most recent clip video that I made for Sydney and Vaughn.  The first time I heard the song I knew that I had to make it into a clip video for Sydney and Vaughn, but for some reason or another I couldn’t ever get it to work the way I wanted it to.  Once I gave up on the scene that I thought had to be included, the rest fell together nicely I think.  I hope you enjoy it. See you soon. :)

Saturday, January 25, 2014

Meeting Michael Vartan




Here it is Friday evening, and I am still in shock over how amazing my day was on Sunday (1/19/14)  I guess I should start at the beginning.  I know that I posted pictures of what I believe to be Michael Vartan’s home in an earlier post.  Since that post I have been to the LA area three other times, and every time I have to go past his house.  Even though I feel kinda like a stalker every time I do it.  Because of that, I refuse to stop, and will only go really slow.  Luckily, his street has a dead end and so to get back to a regular road, you have to pass his house again.   I also have what I believe to be his phone number, (No I will not post the phone number or the address) I have it all saved in my phone under my contacts, but it’s there only for fun, because honestly I think I would feel way to stalkerish to ever actually call it.  Plus what do I say if I do call the number?  Anyway, over Christmas I was thinking how I wanted to go back to LA, but had to convince myself that I really didn’t have a good reason to go, and flying 1000 miles just isn’t logical just to pass his house. 

Michael Vartan's driveway
So I started to think of ways that maybe I could fly someplace else where he would happen to be at the time.  I thought about looking up the Bates Motel filming schedule, but I know it films in Vancouver and I haven’t updated my passport yet, so that was out, plus you have to pay to get those schedules.  So I started thinking more creatively.  I know he loves hockey, and I remembered watching an interview of him at a celebrity hockey match for charity.  So the moment that I got home, (yes, these are the things I think about while driving around running errands with my kids,) I searched online for upcoming celebrity hockey matches.
The details of the event and what the charity supported
This was definitely my way to get to be near Michael Vartan.  I knew that this had to be it.  Boy was I right.  The next hockey match was going to take place in a couple weeks, and I didn’t even have to fly anywhere to be able to go.  I live near Salt Lake City, UT and the hockey game would be taking place in Park City.  Then I felt like a really big idiot when I re-watched the interview of Michael at a charity hockey game and heard the interviewer mention Park City.  So not only was he invited to play this year, he played last year and loved it.  I immediately bought my ticket (best $30 I have ever spent) then I spent some time trying to figure out what friend would be willing to come with me and watch me be a complete idiot and be the fan girl that loses all ounces of being shy when I am around celebrities.  I finally found a good friend to join me and we were getting very excited to go.

Saturday night my friend Jody and I made our official plans, as well as making sure that our husbands were prepared to care for the kids without calling and interrupting us.  But we planned on getting there early and making sure that we had prime picture taking positions.  I guess I should note that she came with me more for the chance to escape her own children and for her husband to have to deal with their seven month old who isn’t the happiest of babies all the time.   She isn’t much of a fan girl, in fact I am still trying to persuade her into watching Alias.   I really need a friend that I can talk with in person about Alias, it kind of drives me crazy.  But she was perfectly happy just being on a girls day out.  She offered her prime spot to someone else so that they could take more pictures, she even held onto my purse so it didn’t get in the way.   I still can’t believe that she didn’t want to get any autographs or her picture with anyone.  But she has since admitted that next year she might be a little more outgoing.
From Lauren Vartan's Twitter; the night before the game she was making a cake and mentioning fun for the whole family had me a little freaked that he might be staying home with her.
On the way to Park City I admitted that I was a little afraid that there might be a possibility that he may not end up being there, after all the event stated that he was invited to play, not confirmed to be there.  I had tried to get him to respond to a tweet asking him if he would be there.  But he is hardly ever on twitter and I never received a response.  I have tweeted his wife Lauren a couple times and she responds every time, but I try to not act like a completely crazy person with her.  In fact the only times I will tweet her is if it actually involves her.  Although I do wish that I was friends with her, she seems very cool and down to earth. Plus I probably laugh more at her twitter comments than anyone else.  It was actually her that had me worried that Michael may not end up at the game, while she will rarely post pictures of him on her twitter feed, she does post other things.  Saturday night she had tweeted about the cake that she was making and her little family.  It had me scared, but I told myself that I would be okay if he didn’t show.  I would’ve been okay, but I think that I would have been really depressed.
My first really good sign that Michael Vartan would in fact be at the game.  His name, picture and what number he would be printed in the program.
We arrived at the rink, and watched as they set everything up, we even got to open the doors into the locker room for someone, I really wanted to follow them in, but I didn’t shell out the $2000 to actually play hockey, in fact this would be my first hockey game.  But it was fun to walk around and see how they were prepping.  We picked up a copy of the program and saw that he would in fact be playing. My fear quickly dissipated, and I could breathe again. We watched as they set up the red carpet and all the media showed up and took their places.  We were the first ones admitted in, so we ended up being at the front of the gate right next to the camera men.  The only people allowed in front of the gate were the players and the reporters doing the interviews.  So basically we were in the perfect position, we could watch all the celebrities do their interviews, and then they would have to pass right by us before going into the locker room.  We waited for a about 20 minutes there before anything started happening.  But it was well worth the wait.  While we were waiting I overheard the conversation of the family that was standing near us.  They were wondering if their dad would have to go down the red carpet or not since he was the ref.  I’m not sure why I turned to look at them at this point, but I did.  Then I saw the name on a packet that the daughter was holding.  I recognized the name as one of my co-workers, which I thought was a little weird, but I thought what the heck, I’ll just ask them if it is him.  Yes it was, a co-worker that I used to work closely with before I changed positions in the company was going to be the ref of the game.  So for the next few minutes, I thought of how I could use this to my advantage if I ended up seeing him.
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I saw that people were starting to get excited, and I noticed that a bigger crowd was beginning to assemble at the entrance to the arena where the red carpet began.  Then someone muttered the magic words for me, “Michael Vartan will be the first one to go through the red carpet.”  That got my attention fast and I immediately turned to focus in on the entrance, and there he was, I couldn’t believe that I was officially in the same room with him.  My picture taking frenzy began, I had a constant struggle in my head of watch him in person, or take as many pictures to document the experience as I could.  I tried to find a balance, but I did get a lot of pictures.  If I wasn’t taking his picture, my eyes were locked in on him, and I couldn’t contain my grin.  I keep searching for the interview that he was doing at the time, but I can’t find it yet, as soon as I do I will post it on here, but he definitely took notice of my attention.  I couldn’t hear the interview going on, but I could see every move that he made.  He was constantly scanning the crowd, and he saw me, he stopped talking for a moment and gave me a huge smile, raised his eyebrows, and winked at me then continued on with the interview.  I’m kind of amazed that I didn’t pass out right there. (Actually I’m not, I’ve never passed out before, but if the day had ended there I would’ve been okay with it.)
One of my favorites from the red carpet.  I mean just look at that grin
Throughout my life I have actually met quite a few celebrities when I really think about it.  I’ve met and talked with almost every cast member of Psych.  I was on a cross country flight with Sharon Stone sitting across the aisle.  I talk to some on the phone with my job occasionally.  Plus some other experiences as well.  But I’ve always seen them as real people, and have found that when they are treated as real people you get more face time with them.  So I really do try and not fan girl too much around them.  Although sometimes it can be really hard, Sunday really tested those abilities on me.   I think that I have mentioned it here before, but I have never really had a celebrity crush until Michael Vartan.  I hate to call it a crush though, because honestly I have no desire of dating him, I don’t see him like that.  I am happily married, and I wouldn’t change that for the world.  One of the reasons that I became such a huge fan was because of his demeanor in interviews that I had seen.  Granted, the only reason that I watched any interviews with him comes back to Alias, and what a great job he did portraying Michal Vaughn.  The interviews that I watched that took place while he was filming Alias were fun to watch, however the interviews that he did after meeting his wife are the ones that are my favorite.  I love seeing a man being so in love with their significant other.  I find it to be an endearing quality.  The way that in almost every interview he brings up his wife and talks about her at some point, you can see how happy she makes him.  It’s also fun to see him wearing something that represents her.  He often wears a shirt that would represent where she is from and explain why he had it on.  Add on that how humble he always appears, as well as not being annoyed with the interview and almost always smiling during the whole thing.  I think that he has somehow managed to find that perfect balance of being a celebrity, and being able to have a life outside of it as well. 
This is a screenshot that I took from an Interview that he was doing for Columbiana.  I actually took it for the arm tattoos that I love, but you can see that he is invested in the interview, and if I remember correctly he talks about Lauren in the interview.
So while I was trying to contain the inner fan girl, I continued to watch him.  I saw what I had seen in interviews, that he was really down to earth, that even when the official camera turned away from him, he didn’t change his attitude.  He talked to a few other people that he knew and was consistently pleasant.  When he arrived near me, I tried to sound normal, but I’m not sure if I managed.  But I called him name and asked if I could get a picture with him.  He smiled at me and said absolutely.  He came right up next to me put his arm around me and asked if I wanted to do a selfie. When he said this, a member of the media took out picture at the same time.  I really wish I knew who that was so I could get a copy of that picture too. But I managed to say yep, and take the picture.  I was flabbergasted at the idea that Michael Vartan had his arm around me.  Was this for real?  After I took the picture, he even asked me if it turned out okay before he left.  I told him it was fine, and he told us to enjoy the game, waved goodbye and walked into the locker room.  Besides what I had seen from afar, I confirmed that he really is a good guy and very down to earth, who appreciates his fans.
Don't mind me, but just look at his smile, as well as the placement of his arm around me. :)
We stayed on the red carpet for a few more minutes.  There were a couple of other people that we thought would be fun to get a picture or two of.  So we stayed long enough so that we could get a picture of David Boreanaz from Bones, as well as Isaiah Mustafa, otherwise known as the Old Spice guy.  I also did spot Alan Thicke but based on the entourage with him, I didn’t think it was worth the possibility of not having good seats.  So since we had seen who we wanted to see we headed inside the hockey rink.
David Broeanaz from Bones & Isaiah Mustafa aka the Old Spice Guy
Having never been to a Hockey game before I didn’t know where the best seats would be, but I assumed that sitting in the front row would be a good bet.  So we were looking around for where we could get the closest when we noticed a single bench at the center of the rink.  We walked down to the bench and looked below us to find more benches that we right next to the ice with doors leading to the ice.  I looked at this and thought that this had to be prime real estate, but also wondered why no one was sitting there.  But decided that we would sit there anyway, unless we heard something saying it was a bad spot.  It was then that I looked below and saw my co-worker coming out of a door below us and into the bench area right next to the ice.  I took my opportunity of knowing someone who had connections to the game.  I asked him what went on in the area below us.  He showed us that the door right below us was where all the players would enter and exit the locker room from.  The benches were reserved for the media and family of players.  We decided that we had found the perfect spot.
The ref on the left hand side of the picture is my co-worker - I know that the others are celebrities as well, but I honestly have no idea who they are.  - Picture was taken by the Salt Lake Tribune
He and I have always gotten along very well, so we did a little chit chat, then he asked me if I there was anyone that I was really looking forward to watch play.  I told him that I was there for Michael Vartan.  He smiled and rolled his eyes at me.  He then wondered why I was there for an actor and not for the actual NHL players.  Luckily it was a rhetorical question, and he then went on to tell me that he was just talking to Michael a few moments ago and that he’s just right behind the door.  He then advised that even though the players came out through that door, that they would be sitting across the arena.  He also said that some players would sometimes take pucks and throw them into the netting for the fans on the front row.  We thought about moving, but decided against it.  He then told me to have fun and disappeared back into the locker room area.  Even though we decided that we had found our best spot, we decided we may want to look at the front row.  So we moved, but then decided that it was too crowded with little kids and as much as I would want that puck if it was Michael Vartan tossing it over, I wouldn’t take it from a kid.  So we went back to the lonely bench.  Only someone else had taken our seat next to the door.  So we went to the other side of the bench, and noticed that there was another door.  We had been sitting for only a minute or two when my co-worker came back out, only this time he came out of the door that we were sitting next to.  He looked around and saw me and asked why we switched seats.  But then quickly told us that we were probably better off anyway as this was the door that they would be using, not the other one.  We had chosen well.  He then said that he got something for me.  I then saw that he was carrying a puck, he told me to be really careful, because the ink was still wet, because it had just been signed especially for me.  He climbed up the benches and handed me a puck signed by Michael Vartan. I thanked him profusely, and he told me it wasn’t a big deal and to enjoy the game.  Here I was, the game hadn’t even started and I had already had Michael Vartan put his arm around me as we took a selfie, talked to him for a small moment, and now he had signed a hockey puck just for me.  I was amazed at my luck.
I was paranoid about losing this during the entire game, I kept checking my purse to make sure it was still there and that nothing in my purse would ruin it.
As they were getting ready to begin the game I saw the media started to accumulate below us getting ready to take pictures of the players coming out of the locker room.  It wasn’t a great shot, but I was willing to take anything I could get, picture wise, and so I planted myself with my camera so I could get video of Michael Vartan coming out of the locker room.  One guy from the media was very friendly and started up a conversation with me as we were waiting.  He asked if there was anyone in particular that I wanted a picture of.  I told him, and he told me that I couldn’t see it, but that Michael Vartan was literally just right behind the door, he also told me that he would give me a heads up when it looked like they were ready to come out.  He was good on his word and even though it wasn’t a great angle, I got the video of Michael Vartan coming out of the locker room and getting on the ice.
As you can see, I really didn't have the best angle, but it was a pretty good position to be in for all the coming and going from the locker room.
I took a few pictures of him on the ice as well as some of the others as well, but mostly of him.  Then I turned on my video for a moment when I realized that they were starting to warm up.  I followed him with my camera as he started up slow and then kicked it into full gear.  He really can skate.  I however need to remember that the iPhone needs to be turned horizontal for the video to actually look good, so sorry about that. The video is only a sampling of what he was doing on the ice.  But I really enjoyed watching him and seeing some of the little things that he did.  You know how much I love those little details in Alias, so it’s not surprising that I would pick up on them here.  But watched as he practiced handling the puck, as well as noticing how much he really loves being out on the ice.  You could see them preparing to start the game and the other players for the most part had gone over to their bench.  But he stayed out there, skating and helping retrieve all the pucks that had been put on the ice for the warm up.  He wasn’t throwing them at the audience, but actually helping the refs collect them.  In that moment, I had the thought that he doesn’t think that he is too good for anything or that he is above helping people in general.  I really liked seeing this side of him. 
 
After they had finished announcing the players and doing some official stuff, I watched as he skated over towards us and saw that he was going to run back in to the locker room.  I grabbed my camera again and got a few more shots of him up close.  When he returned only a moment later, I saw why he left.  For the warm up, for some reason he was wearing a jersey that had one of his numbers crossed out.  When he came back, his jersey had the correct number of 66 without a crossed out 6.  I’m not sure why it happened, but it was nice to get that extra chance for more pictures.
I may not have had the best angle for pictures, but I managed a few good ones.
Once the game began, I actually was interested in the game and I was trying to figure out what the rules were.  I never really caught on, but it was still fun to attempt to figure it out.  What I did learn is that even though there were many players wearing essentially the same outfit, I could easily pick him out at any time.  I had noticed this earlier in the day, but hadn’t thought anything of it.  He looks much skinnier in person.  Like I said I hadn’t thought much of it, until he was out on the ice.  But he was easy to spot as he was the skinniest man on the ice.  I actually got very caught up in the game and forgot to take pictures or video during the game.  I know feel kinda like an idiot for forgetting, but oh well.  I did notice that he must be an offence player as he usually kept close to his team’s goalie.  Although when needed he could easily skate up towards the other side to help out.  The other thing that I noticed was that he seemed to be paying close attention to not getting hurt.  For the most part he avoided fighting over the puck with another player.  If he did start to, it seemed like it was out of habit, but then remembered that he had to be careful.  I’m not sure if this was the case, but it was what it looked like from my standpoint.  I assumed that it was because he was still filming Bates Motel and that he needed to still look like the gorgeous boyfriend, so he was instructed to not get hurt or to mess up his face.

The players went back to the locker room for a little while after the second quarter and I was able to get another picture or two.   While I was waiting with my camera for another awkward shot of him coming out of the locker area and back onto the ice, the media guy from earlier struck up another conversation with me.  He asked if I had gotten any good shots yet, I told him that they were okay, but I had gotten some really good ones earlier on the red carpet, and I already had the hockey puck I was pretty happy so far.  He then told me that if I wanted to give him my cell number, he would text me all of the pictures of Michael Vartan that he ended up getting.  He seemed nice enough, so I went for it.  I wasn’t going to pass up on additional pictures, but I wasn’t too sure that he would actually follow up.  But I figured that there was no harm just giving him my number.  I got a few more shots as they got back on the ice.
You can see the grin on his face still, he is excited to be here, having the chance to play with players that he admires.
This is where I really regret putting down my camera.  But I was actually engrossed in watching what was going on, I didn’t think about what I good video it would make.  This time around as they warmed back up, there was a different vibe among the players.  They were for the most part, just goofing off.  But once again Michael Vartan caught my attention with the little details.  I looked over to where he was, and saw that he had taken one of the players who had purchased a spot to play with them, and was practicing passing the puck along with showing some tricks.  Normally this wouldn’t be that big of a deal, but the other play was a little boy.  Granted the little boy was the son of David Broeanaz, but nonetheless Michael was taking the time to spend one on one time with this 11 year old boy out on the ice while the other players mostly sat on the bench and chatted with one another.   Seeing him interact with a child made my heart melt.  I mean really how lucky is he wife?  He is madly in love with her and loves talking about her, plus he’s good with kids.  It defiantly makes me wonder when they will have one of their own.  A few moments later that had a miniature shootout, they had three players from each team try and score a goal with just the goalie in their way.  I can’t believe that when they called Michael out for his turn I didn’t grab the camera, but oh well.  He did great, even going for a trick shot with the puck.  But the goalie caught it.  Everyone there was impressed and the guys who were the MC’s tried to convince him as well as encouraging the audience to help convince him to do it again.  But he looked embarrassed and declined and got back on the bench.
I'm not sure when this was taken, this was one of the shots taken my my friend from the media that asked for my phone number.  It's kind of funny to think about all the people conspiring behind the scenes of the game to get good things for me in relation to Michael Vartan.  I love the kindness of other people!  - But just look at how happy he is just to be sitting on the bench and talking to a former NHL player.
They finished the hockey game, his team lost though, although by only one point.  I officially became a hockey fan.  At least a fan of games like this one was.  After the game they took a group shot and I tried to get a few pictures of him there, but once again I didn’t have the best angle.  Once I saw Michael leave the ice for the locker rooms, we decided that we didn’t need to stick around any longer, that we would be better off waiting for everyone to leave the arena.  Once again I managed to get a prime location.  Plus even though she was in a hurry to get to another event, I was able to catch Andie McDowell, for a signature.  I didn’t manage a picture though.  While we were waiting for Michael Vartan to come out, we saw David Boraenaz again and I was able to get a few more pictures of him and his signature.  I was having them sign a shirt from the event that the mascot of the LA Kings had thrown at me earlier before the game. 

Then once again my heart jumped as I saw Michael Vartan coming out of the locker room and ready to greet everyone.  But after seeing the rush that some of the others players were in, seeing that most of them had waved at the fans, signed a couple things, took one or two pictures and they were gone.  But luckily for me I am a fan of a very gracious man.  Which like I mentioned before is what made me a fan in the first place.  He stopped multiple times before getting to the end of the line where I was.  Right ahead of me where a bunch of little kids, and after watching them get turned down a few times by other stars, it was great to see Michael actually full on interact with them.  He had two Hockey sticks and he gave them to these kids.   He even went as far as to make sure that when he gave the second stick away that they were in the same family so that they wouldn’t end up fighting over the stick.  He signed everything they handed him and he asked them questions the whole time being fully engaged with these kids.  I don’t think that anything is more attractive on a man than seeing how he interacts with children.
Michael Vartan greeting fans, having conversations with them.  Giving his hockey stick to a set of brothers, telling them not to fight over it, or with it. The last one my friend took as he was walking over towards me.
Once the kids were done, it was my turn again, he signed my shirt and I asked if I could get a picture that wasn’t a selfie.  He happily put his arm around me once more and smiled for the camera.  I was able to tell him how much I loved his work, and that I thought his wife was wonderful.  Once I mentioned his wife, he lit up and wondered how I knew her.  I said that I didn’t but that I had talked with her on twitter a few times and thought that she seemed very nice.  Then he told me that she is indeed wonderful.  I then asked if he was heading back up to Vancouver to finish up Bates Motel, and he told me that no he lived in LA, and that they were finished filming Bates Motel.  (I came so close to blurting out that I knew he lived in LA and that I’ve past his house on multiple occasions.  But I held my tongue.)  He told me that it was nice to meet me and headed out the door. 
By the end of the day, I was exhausted and my face hurt from smiling, but once again he was more than willing to put his arm around me once more and show off his heart melting smile.
Once again I was amazed at what good luck I had had during the day.  Jody came around the gate as we were in weird positions around the gate, and we fought through the crowd to get outside and out to the car.  When we got outside, we found that we were about to walk into a photo that someone was taking of their group with Michael Vartan and she wondered out loud if he would do another one with her in the photo.  This was his first sign of being a little overwhelmed, I think because they were bombarding him with Alias related questions.  One thing I have found after watching interviews, he knows that he owes his fame to Alias, but he isn’t a fan of only being recognized for it.  So I stepped in and offered to take their photo together.  He never stopped smiling or being friendly to these fans, but he was grateful to get off of the Alias topic.  He changed the topic saying that he can’t wait for the role where he gets to shave his head and kill someone as the bad guy.  They brought up Bates Motel and he told them that he is literally the only character in the show that didn’t get to do anything exciting like killing.  I guess we’ll see about that when Bates Motel starts in March.  We ended up walking towards the cars together and I mentioned that my husband and I loved watching Demoted.  He smiled and thanked me and said that it was a fun one.  Jody and I stopped at the edge of the curb for me to look through my purse and find my keys and put away some stuff before we left.  I didn’t notice that one last person had stopped Michael before getting on to his van that would take him home.   But it was the cutest old lady, and she only wanted a picture of him against the mountains.  If I hadn’t just put my camera away, I would’ve taken one too.  The funniest part of this was that behind us, someone was heckling him; I’m guessing that they are buddies in some form.  But while he was smiling politely without even thinking he flipped his friend off, but just did it at waist level.  But then he realized his mistake, and quickly checked with the nice old lady to see if she had taken his picture from the waist and up, he seemed genuinely concerned that her picture would be ruined; and wanted to make sure that in no way was he flipping her off, that it was aimed at his friend over there.  By this time I really felt like we were stalking him, but it really wasn’t on purpose.  We tried to keep our distance and let him get into his van before going to our car, so we didn’t end up walking together again.  But he did end up noticing us and called over to us and told us to have a good night and that it was nice to meet us.  

After this one day being near him, I found him to be the ultimate gentleman.  I can’t imagine that he is any different on a day to day basis, but I could be wrong.  I really wish that he was more recognized in Hollywood and given more roles that he wants, like the role of a killer who has to shave his head, but not only that, but letting him show his comedic side, and not just on movies that are destined to tank.  He really does have talent and I can’t imagine that working with him would be hard.  I have to say that I will treasure this experience, as well as buy tickets for next year at the first possible chance.

We left the ice arena with the intention of heading down to Sundance since we were literally 2 miles away from Park City Main Street, but decided that we had had enough fun and we were far too tired for more excitement.  We ended up heading back into Salt Lake and grabbing some dinner before heading home to our kids and the inevitable question from our girls who are best friends asking if they could have a sleepover (we caved and allowed it, even though I was dead tired.)  But we had genuinely had a good day.  For Jody being an introvert and really not being a fan of crowded situations even enjoyed the whole thing and is ready to join me next year.  As we were eating I received a text from an unknown number and almost dismissed it until later.  But then Jody reminded me that I’m expecting a text from an unknown number.  I open it up and there were four more glorious pictures of Michael Vartan.  
See a much better angle than I had.  It almost looks like he is whistling on his way in to the ice.
 I think that after the hellish week and a half that I had had leading up to the hockey match, the stars aligned to make sure that I would have a good day, and I did.  Like I mentioned before, I am still in shock of meeting this man that I have somewhat come to idolize on this blog.  And while Michael Vaughn will still be my favorite character on Alias, I will definitely be looking for more of Michael Vartan in him.  Because while I may not have a crush on the man in the traditional terms, I still find him to be very attractive and seeing him in real life and seeing how he treats others only made him better.
Some of my favorite shots from the day rolled up into one picture.
Once again thank you Michael Vartan for giving me the best day I have had in a long time, and turning a really shitty week around for me.